Cravings

Having cravings to be wild and crazy
Go out raging with no question of maybe
Stake my claim on a certain kind of lady
Bury my dreams because nothing can save me

The things I used to do
Still give me the blues
So everyday I have to choose
Between living a lie or telling the truth
Its up to me not up to you

Having cravings to be drunk and lazy
Go out stumbling with no direction or safety
Take the blame for everything that is shady
Hurry my schemes so everyone will hate me

The things I used to do
Still give me the blues
So everyday I have to choose
Between living a lie or telling the truth
Its up to me not up to you

Lyrics by Ryan Hughes

Roll Away The Stone

The story I will tell
Has been around forever
But I never knew it well
So I’ll do my best
To describe the endeavor
Of a man trying to conquer hell

Cause you know what its like
To walk the hill of Calvary
And you know what its like to walk alone
Here I stand with a wish
Of laying down beside you
But I’m left to roll away the stone

The glory that he shared
Can keep us all together
Even though we removed the nails
I’ll do my best
To keep my soul tethered
To a man and the promise that he kept

Cause you know what its like
To walk the hill of Calvary
And you know what its like to walk alone
Here I stand with a wish
Of laying down beside you
But I’m left to roll away the stone

Lyrics/Poem by Ryan Hughes

Light and Dark

To live in the shadows
And forsake all that matters
Will burn your soul to dust
To live in the sunlight
Redeemed by whats right
Can turn your soul to love
But you can’t pull apart
The light and the dark
Only know that they’re infused
From here to the sun
And the great beyond
We’re made of the same things too

Poem by Ryan Hughes

At the Hands of Men

Broken blinds on the window
The grass is turning brown
It ain’t rained in a month since Sunday
Folks are leaving town
If you got some money
You got a place to run
But I’m stuck here in the country
‘Cause I ain’t got none

A story was told long ago
I can’t remember when
About how at the hands of men
The world would end
Nobody wanted to listen
They looked the other way
Only to live knowing
That death they can’t escape

I hope I see tomorrow
These days you can never tell
The devil burned down the church house
Jesus went to hell
I don’t remember being angry
Or ever being scared
But now I know we were wrong
And there is no love to declare

The train don’t run through here no more
Its dead and destroyed
The town preacher stole its gold
And blew up everyone on board
It made a lot of folks mad
But I wasn’t surprised
I would have done it myself
But gold ain’t worth people dying

Nature has no fear
Even while she dies
We take too much from it
And leave nothing behind
Maybe there is an answer
But will come when we’re gone
This war fought with a nuclear bomb
The next with sticks and stones

My grandpa built this house
Many years ago
And its been many years
Since he walked the earth
I want to keep it alive
Its stronger than it ever was
But the wildfire is moving north
And that is where we are

Everybody is praying
And hoping too
That what they’re seeing
Ain’t coming true
Everybody gathering
Two of everything
Flood moving across the land
But of fire and not rain

Poem/Lyrics by Ryan Hughes

Belly Full

He fills his glasses to the brim
He gets his belly full
He throws his money all around
And calls everyone else a fool

He never questions what he says
Because he’s never wrong
He never questions what he thinks
Because there’s nothing there at all

He speaks of noble deeds
Has superstitious ways
Turns his head at the woes of man
And calls it all fair play

He is a master of war
And we are his warrior slaves
Sent out to handle the treacherous world
While he lies at home in his bed

He owns the world and all it brings
And throws it from his hands
Never closer to himself
Or any other man

Poem by Ryan Hughes

Nothing to Lose

Nothing to lose, but losing
Nothing to choose, but freedom
No time to waste
I know you can relate
Nothing to lose, but losing

I can raise hell in this town
I can stay home and be loud
I can run away
Or sing and play
Nothing to lose, but losing

You can gain the whole world
All its gold and its pearls
Women and men
At your command
Nothing to lose, but losing

All that flows is flowing
The world turns without knowing
All that ends
Somewhere else begins
Nothing to lose, but losing

Nothing to lose, but losing
Nothing to choose, but freedom
No time to waste
I know you can relate
Nothing to lose, but losing

Poem by Ryan Hughes

Something Tells Me

Something tells me I’m doing good
The sun is shining like it should
I wouldn’t change it if I could
Something tells me I’m doing good

Something tells me its alright
To sleep all day and play all night
Stumble home in the morning light
Something tells me its alright

Maybe its luck
Trying to last forever
Maybe its the gods and fate
Trying to work together

Something tells me I’m doing fine
My heart is beating and keeping time
My mind is looking for all the signs
Something tells me I’m doing fine

Maybe its a dream
Trying to last forever
Maybe its love and hate
Trying to work together

Something tells me I’m doing good
The sun is shining like it should
I wouldn’t change it if I could
Something tells me I’m doing good

Lyrics/Poem by Ryan Hughes

Ready and Waiting

Ready and waiting
Don’t hesitate saying
Whatever comes to your mind
I’m lonely and listening
‘Cause I’ve been missing
Your lips touching mine

Ready and waiting
I’ve been praying
Our love will turn out right
Tearful and broken
Stuck on the notion
That you’ll be coming back tonight

Ready and waiting
Anticipating
Whatever brings me delight
Prideful and shameless
Reckless and aimless
It was you who showed me the light

Poem/Lyrics by Ryan Hughes

Until

I never was polite
Or knew a saving grace
I never knew sight
Until I saw your face

I never was grateful
Or found a peace within
Always feeling hateful
Until I let your love in

I never knew magic
Or believed in a soul
Life was always tragic
Until you made me whole

I never knew fun
Or how to ask for help
Always on the run
Until you saved me from myself

Poem by Ryan Hughes

Open Book

I’m an open book
With all the pages torn out
I fell on the floor
And got kicked under the couch
I’m friends with the wall
My jacket is dusty
Never opened at all
Except once at a party

I hear your footsteps
But don’t see your face
Will you ever know
What my pages say
Once on the shelf
Next to a book on saints
Under the Bell Jar
And a stack of red paint

I’m an open book
With all the pages faded
I’m a lonely look
In far away places
Kept in a box
Mixed in with the rest
You’ll remember me one day
But right now you forget

Lyrics/Poem by Ryan Hughes

Back to You

I ain’t been around the world
But I’ve been around this town
I’ve searched every corner
For the good times I have found
Now my wild days are over
And my wicked ways are through
I’m glancing at the clover
On my way back to you

I wonder if you miss me
When I’m feeling this way
I remember how you kissed me
These thoughts keep me awake
But when the sun is rising
And the day becomes brand new
I know I must be finding
My way back to you

I’m at another airport
Roaming through the south
Someone thought they saw you
But still had their doubts
I can’t help but wander
Though I don’t know where to
I’ve been over and under
On my way back to you

Poem/Lyrics by Ryan Hughes

Beware

Reared by language
Meant for the gods
Tempered by anger
Against all odds
Bend down
With your spirit
Lift up
With your soul
Beware of
Healers
Demons
And
Gold

Poem by Ryan Hughes

I AM

Go without
And go within
Learn your prayers
Forgive your sins
Heaven and Hell
Can be a friend
All in my head
Makes me who I am

 

Poem by Ryan Hughes

For Charlotte

I see it in the depth of your eyes
All the joy you can’t quite describe
But I hope you realize
That I love you

I feel it on the touch of your skin
The way that you pull me in
I’ll say it again and again
That I love you

I see it in the steps we take
I feel it in the love we make
My heart tells me don’t wait
Because I love you

I know it in the smile you give
And believe in the dream you live
My words can’t keep it hid
That I love you

I hear it in the way you call my name
Laughing at the games we play
How much more can I explain
That I love you

I see it as you sleep in the night
And I lay awake trying to write
Pretty soon I’ll turn out the light
And say I love you

Poem/Lyrics by Ryan Hughes

Got An Idea

You got an idea
What you’re talking about
Got this feeling
It’ll all work out

But I can’t live it for you
And I can’t hold your hand
No way to tell how its gonna end

But you got and idea
What you’re talking about

Got an idea
What your preaching about
Where an angry whisper
Can rise to a shout

I can’t worship in your temple
Or sit beside you on a pew
Can’t bow down to your altar
Or pray that its the truth

Cause you got an idea
What you’re preaching about

Got an idea
What life is about
Try and write it down
In black and white

Reach for lonely lies
When the truth you cannot say
Defeat what gets the best of you
And stands in your way

You got an idea
What life is about

Poem by Ryan Hughes

Some Type of Love

Everybody’s talking
I am listening
Try to find out what you’re saying
Nobody ever talks straight forward to me
Even the girl who stands so bright
You can find her without the moonlight
I need some type of love to help me see

Break down in the middle of the ocean
I got my friend I can count on
But at the same time
He’s counting on me
The engine’s dead
The anchor’s lost
Death don’t seem so far off
I need some type of love to help me see

Winter time coming, cold December
But the cold’s in your blood
Not in the weather
Everybody is blind including me
Feel the time creeping
But it goes so fast
Nobody knows how long they’ll last
We all need some type of love to help us see

This side is praying
That one is crying
Which one should I be denying
Neither one seems much different to me
But sometimes you walk a lonely road
And sometimes you got to walk alone
We all need some type of love to help us see

Lyrics/Poem by Ryan Hughes (circa 2006-2007)

Quarantine Collaboration

More collaborative art from Charlotte Blom and Ryan Hughes.
We made these abstract chalk pastel drawings in the past couple weeks between long walks, long naps, movie watching and quiet reading.
We thought some art therapy might be a good way to balance ourselves and direct our feelings into something positive during these strange and trying times.

FullSizeR (2)
Red Sun River
FullSizeR (1)
Converging Color

The Eye See Art by Charlotte Blom And Ryan Hughes

I Wait

The world stopped turning today
But I didn’t notice
Always running away
Without a purpose

So I wait for you dear
Though your words are not clear

The sun stopped shining today
So you can’t curse it
The darkness keeps me awake
Just below the surface

Where I wait for you dear
Where your heart beats so clear

If my heart turned into clay
How would you shape it
Would your words lead me astray
Or give me courage

So I wait for you dear
When your heart beat so clear

Lyrics by Ryan Hughes

Lonely Hunter

The heart is a lonely hunter
Waiting to go under
The spell of your touch
The thrill of your love
But I know

A dream is roving blunder
Kept on a string for no other
Easy to see
Hard to believe
But I know

The mind is full of wonder
Hoping to discover
A road that is best
And not have to guess
But I know

Life will toil and tumble
Rise and burn to rubble
Then run round the bend
To come back again
But I know

The heart is a lonely hunter
Waiting to go under
The spell of your touch
The risk of your love
But I know

Lyrics by Ryan Hughes

Wedding Day

The tremble in your hand
The love in your heart
No one now
Can tear them apart
He pulled back the veil
And felt the warm embrace
But sad on her wedding day

No one noticed her tears
And least not at first glance
Love was cruel before
But now a second chance
Called it a gift from God
Sent by grace
Still sad on her wedding day

Nothing but smiles
Spread through the crowd
Under the sun
Covered by a cloud
Even when the I do’s you say
Still sad on your wedding day

Poem/Lyrics by Ryan Hughes